For the majority of my life, I did a lot of things I wanted to do based on the direction my parents sent me off to. What I thought was the right thing to do. While in Davis, I was blessed to be guided by many amazing Christ centered people. But I realized that because of my culture or naturally submissive nature I don’t know, I wanted to do what they were doing or what they want for me. It’s not that their desires are bad, but I’m seeing myself repeating the same thing with my parents. Whenever someone who is older or is in a position of authority, I naturally think that whatever they’re saying or doing is right. I never really take the time to understand what God wants for me and what I want for myself… Spring quarter, God was incredibly gracious to show me a passion I have for Him. I jumped too quickly to think that a certain incident meant my entire life was headed towards a completely new direction, a life like the ones of the older people guiding me. Because… It seemed like the right thing to do.
One thing is for certain though. God is letting me choose whatever I want, as long as it is for Him. And whatever I pick doesn’t mean I have to do it forever.
But it always still comes down to Him asking me, “What do you want?” Unfortunately, it always goes to whatever I think is the “right” thing to do.