A few days after reading the article I posted a while back, I naturally stopped wearing my purity ring. I guess for similar reasons stated in the article. I’m simply not … Waiting for anyone. I currently don’t look forward to being in a relationship or getting married. It’s not that I’m bitter. I’m not bitter at all. It’s just that I know I don’t need it.
I held my tongue a few days ago. A couple friends were talking about the topic and they talk about relationships and marriage like it is … a goal. For some, the goal. At the moment, I don’t want to get married. I just don’t care for it. I can’t see myself being in a committed relationship. And … a lot of my friends don’t share the same view. I guess I could say I was a bit scoffed at. No one openly insulted me or anything, but I could feel this anger building up inside of me, feeling myself being judged if I were to openly express why I’m not “waiting” anymore. I don’t want people telling me “when you get married” or “when you get a boyfriend” or “when blah blah.” I just don’t want to be expected to be in a serious relationship and get married anymore. I want to do my thing. I have God and He’s all I need. And if it so happens that in the future, He blesses me with a special man, then awesome! But. I’m not waiting for it. I’m not eagerly seeking it. I’m just … Joyful with everything I have and all I am right now. It’s so peaceful.
And if you are a person who is looking forward to being married and such, then that’s awesome too! That’s great. I guess I’m just trying to process (on tumblr… haha) why I no longer feel the same way.